<爱在午夜降临时>
I mean, I always feel like a freak because I’m never able to move on like this:
People just have an affair, or even entire relationships. they break up and they forget.
They move on like they would have changed brand of cereals. I feel I was never able to forget anyone I’ve been with. because each person had their own specific qualities. You can never replace anyone.What is lost is lost.
I will miss of the person the most mundane things.
Like I’m obsessed with little things. Maybe I’m crazy, but when I was a little girl. my mom told me that I was always late to school. One day she followed me to see why. I was looking at chestnuts falling from the trees, rolling on the sidewalk. or ants crossing the road, the way a leaf casts a shadow on a tree trunk. Little things. I think it’s the same with people. I see in them little details ,so specific to each of them.that move me and that I miss and will always miss. You can never replace anyone.because everyone is made of such beautiful, specific details.
Like, I remember how your lips are soft and sexy. and how the sun was making it glow that morning right after you left.
I remembered that, and I missed it.
<面纱>
I had no illusions about you,’ he said. ‘I knew you were silly and frivolous and empty-headed. But I loved you. I knew that your aims and ideals were vulgar and commonplace. But I loved you. I knew that you were second-rate. But I loved you. It’s comic when I think how hard I tried to be amused by the things that amused you and how anxious I was to hide from you that I wasn’t ignorant and vulgar and scandal-mongering and stupid. I knew how frightened you were of intelligence and I did everything I could to make you think me as big a fool as the rest of the men you knew. I knew that you’d only married me for convenience. I loved you so much, I didn’t care. Most people, as far as I can see, when they’re in love with someone and the love isn’t returned feel that they have a grievance. They grow angry and bitter. I wasn’t like that. I never expected you to love me, I didn’t see any reason that you should. I never thought myself very lovable. I was thankful to be allowed to love you and I was enraptured when now and then I thought you were pleased with me or when I noticed in your eyes a gleam of good-humored affection. I tried not to bore you with my love; I knew I couldn’t afford to do that and I was always on the lookout for the first sign that you were impatient with my affection. What most husbands expect as a right I was prepared to receive as a favor.”
<爱在日落黄昏后>
I mean, I always feel like a freak because I’m never able to move on like this:
People just have an affair, or even entire relationships. they break up and they forget.
They move on like they would have changed brand of cereals. I feel I was never able to forget anyone I’ve been with. because each person had their own specific qualities. You can never replace anyone.What is lost is lost.
I will miss of the person the most mundane things.
Like I’m obsessed with little things. Maybe I’m crazy, but when I was a little girl. my mom told me that I was always late to school. One day she followed me to see why. I was looking at chestnuts falling from the trees, rolling on the sidewalk. or ants crossing the road, the way a leaf casts a shadow on a tree trunk. Little things. I think it’s the same with people. I see in them little details ,so specific to each of them.that move me and that I miss and will always miss. You can never replace anyone.because everyone is made of such beautiful, specific details.
Like,Like, I remember the way your beard has a bit of red in it. and how the sun was making it glow that morning right before you left.
I remembered that, and I missed it.